Tomorrow, February 2nd, will be a year since 9 month old Matilda Mae, the beautiful baby daughter of Jennie at Edspire, went to sleep and didn't wake up again.
As a Mummy to two little boys, it shook me to the core.
When I saw GhostwriterMummy was asking for letters to Matilda Mae, I felt I had to write something..anything. I am just one of countless Mums and Dads who have been so touched by what Jennie, her husband and family have been through and although words are just not enough, I wanted to know that one more family cares.
Dear Matilda Mae,
You were such a beautiful baby - your Mummy and Daddy were so proud. Even though I had never met any of you, your family touched my heart.
I had only been following your Mummy's blog for a couple of weeks, when I saw her devastating news on Twitter. It stopped me in my tracks...I couldn't believe what I was reading.
Gone. How could you be gone? It didn't make sense and I rushed upstairs in shock and tears to check on my own sleeping baby.
From that day on, Matilda Mae, you and your lovely brave family have never been far from my thoughts. I have sobbed over your Mummy's heart-wrenching updates and have felt so helpless seeing her grief unfolding in front of me whilst trying to remain normal Mummy to your twin brother and sister.
You were, and still are so loved by so many.
Your Mummy & Daddy are amazing, inspirational and brave.
I would simply like to say thank you, Matilda Mae, for making me truly appreciate what I have, to be a better Mummy and to be more patient. You have made a difference and will never be forgotten.
Goodnight and God Bless sweet little girl,
For Matilda, my friends babies Amelie & Florence and all those who have been loved and lost...
The world my never notice if a snowdrop doesn't bloom
Or even stop to wonder if the petals fall too soon
But every life that ever forms or ever comes to be
Touches the world in some small way for all eternity
The little one we longed for was swiftly here then gone
But the love that was then planted is a light that still shines on
For though our arms are empty, our hearts know what to do
Every beating of our hearts says that we love you.
Jennie & her husband work hard to support the Lullaby Trust and their research into Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Please support them in any way you can.